Since my grandfather has an aserism. The anniversary of his death isn't until tomorrow though.

I'm really sad. I couldn't sleep last night because I was crying so much. I miss him terribly And there's this one memory I have with him...that I think I'll never forget.

This was a while ago, I think about 5 years. My grandpa was staring at me in the car, and then I said...
Me: Nonno, why are you staring at me?
Nonno: Well, you know, because I don't have lots of time left. And I want to enjoy seeing you as much as I can.
Me: Don't be silly, you aren't going to die anytime soon!
(nonno means 'grandfather' in italian. that's what i've always called him my whole life)

I thought that it was creepy and stupid that he stared at me. He would do that a lot, actually. Now I know why.

I think that when you get older, you know when you are going to die. Like, my grandpa bought me a necklace for my graduation about a year before my actually graduation. I think he knew that he wasn't going to be able to be there. Call me crazy, or whatever, but that's what I believe.

Now let's move on to a topic that's a little less depressing.

College starts in 54 days. I'm so excited nervous, but excited. Especially since like a ton of my friends are going to the same college. A different campus, but I live near the one they are going to. I just have to drive 30+ minutes to school each day -_- bleh. But my earliest class is at 8:45 on tuesdays. every other day classes are like at 10 i love ittt

Oh, and another wonderful thing..a friend of mine is moving back here to go to the same college as me. He was my friend like 2-4th grade, and he moved to texas i think in the middle of 4th grade. I recently have been in touch with him through facebook. He's so nice and supportive with everything I do plus he thinks i'm (a) hot (b) so cool because I'm a gamer. It's nice that a guy is actually into me, since that hasn't happened in a while. Well...okay, recently, but i mean with a guy I don't think is a creepy stalker/annoying as hell. Haha I've been talking to him for like 2 hours. I WAS going to check my messages then go to bed, but then he started talking to me on facebook lol.

So yeah That's going to be pretty awesome haha. College in general will be. Hopefully though I'll get the same experience even though I'm living at home. I'll probably be hanging out at my friends dorms/other places all the time anyways Hopefully. I'm kinda hoping that college will mean a more social life for me. Because well now? it's not the greatest. I mean I see my friends every chance i get, but with work it's kinda hard Meh. I'll meet 3847028934 more people in college anyways. ...okay, not that many, but you catch my drift.

Oh. I'm suppose you want to know how I'm doing art wise huh? Well I'm participating in the AU Kataang week happening next week. I even have day one's entry complete it looks pretty cool..but I'm waiting to post it So yaaa! It's colored and everything

So I'm going to go to bed now. Ciao bellas.